Sometimes Random.

Morning blues. The day hasn't started and I'm ready to call it quits. Why have these days grained my good spirits away? Could it be the season? Tis the season for much and tis my reason not to care...it's all a bunch of bull. I haven't embraced my family for the holidays in years. Just got back into the mix with the ones in my household and they're alot more surprised than I am. 

Nothing wrong with enjoying the moments though. Hott coco on a cold morning or late night. The smell of fresh pine and freezing air crisp at the back of your throat whenever you inhale...the smoke signals that surround your face whenever you exhale...The quiet morning walks to work, the empty grey skies and big boots. I love boots and sweaters, hoodies, gloves are so nice... The comfort in warmth is a beautiful thing, one of the safest feelings I've known. What do I have against old man winter? Sometimes loving the cold doesn't keep you warm enough. 

Now what? Blank spots in the thinking process, its still too early for me to care. But I can smile, I do that well...shyt...better at smiling than I am telling the truth...lol...and I tell the truth pprreetttyyy fuckin' often so you could imagine how much I smile....smile and all the while, I might be just alil bit crazy. Ya know, CRAZY people usually think they're sane, in my case...I don't think thats it lol. Salvador Dali said it best "There is only one difference between a madman and me. The madman thinks he is sane. I know I am mad" But what's sane anymore, anyways...give it another year or two and I bet that "Insanity" will be the new "rockstar"...and everyone will find it cool to pop anti-depressive pills, slam heads against walls, write on the walls with dog poop and kill their parents...Even more, the population of crime will increase and the most overrated statement these convicts will use is "I pled temporary insanity your honor"...For what? Just so America can find a way to work around THAT one too...those assholes ruined it for the rest of the smart ones who have their whole trial planned out just in case of any event that might happen. Once everyone starts using the crazy card there will be more of a chance that no one will believe it...even harder to prove a case and then some...you're just another faker in a world of more realistic problems....

::looks around:: how the hell did I even get on that topic? LOL...oye. Well, I'm at work. I shouldn't be THIS comfortable pouring my heart out when theres work to be done. ::laughs:: oye...When will I start learning? I need to start to care more...::sighs::

Back at it...